depression

4 more days.
i can't believe i won't be going for their concert..
what is this? whenever i think of the concert, the anger towards my parents will emerge..
i'll be gone for a day ONLY. why cant you all just let me go... im using my own money not like im going to ask you to pay right? come to think of it, you all NEVER let me do/support the things i want to do.. i always get to do things i wanted by force.. BY FORCE.. i don't even remember any one time you let me do the things i wanted willingly. all you do is wanting to take control of my life.. i really want to go for the concert.. even if the ticket cost me two hundre over dollars.. and i don't even know when they'll be holding another concert.. tomorrow? next week? next moth? next year? 10 years later? even if they held another concert, it wont be the o concert...
im getting more and more depressed when i see people counting down to saturday.. i could have been like them, counting down to saturday.. ok, you may think that im crazy. ok, i admit that im TVXQ crazy. ): enough. im crazy.